times

I can't believe how fast time seems to go. It's as if minutes can drag on so slowly, yet months seem to pass by faster than I can keep track of. What a blessing a single day is. Can you imagine being like an insect that only has a week's life span? Or an even crazier thought, what if we only lasted 24 hours?? I'm so grateful that that is not the case lol. There are so many things that I overlook each day...life being one of them. I really think that each day should be lived out to its' fullest potential for the Lord. But I also really think that's impossible...atleast without the Holy Spirit. But even with Him being alive in me I struggle every day just to spend time with Him. Sometimes I wish I could just be perfect and at peace all the time. I know that won't happen until I'm in Heaven though. But then I realize what a great adventure God is taking me on. And who ever heard of an adventure without pain, heartache, romance, danger, and trials? Life really is such a beautiful mess.

And along with this adventure comes all types of characters. And every one of them so beautiful and unique in their own way. Right now I'm so happy to be in Jupiter seeing all of the friends I made in high school. I really feel like God is just pouring out blessings on me. I'm really going to miss all of them when the time comes to leave. I long for some sort of virtual reality where the people I love are always next door and no one ever leaves. It's a silly wish. Though I look forward to many other people that God will put in my life and heart, I don't look so eagerly forward to the many other goodbyes I'll have to endure. I just hope that everyone I love will end up in Heaven. How much more heartbreaking would it be to say goodbye for eternity...I'm pretty sure I just rhymed haha. But I seriously can't get this subject off of my heart tonight.

"True instruction was in his mouth and nothing false was found on his lips. He walked with me in peace and uprightness, and turned many from sin."--Malachi 2:6

I really hope that one day God will be able to say something like this about me. I know I can't be perfect, or actually turn people from their sins, but I hope that I can atleast plant a seed for Jesus in anyone I meet. I know that that's only possible by allowing the Holy Spirit to work in my life. I just second guess myself so much that every now and then I wonder whether or not I've pushed Him away too far. I don't believe I have though, because I'm reminded that Christ is always with me.

"And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."--Matthew 28:20

"His love endures forever."--Psalm 118:1/29

"Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens."--Psalm 68:19

"Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'"--Hebrews 13:5

"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."--Psalm 27:14

I think I want to make a new vow to myself and to God to treat each day as a new opportunity to grow, learn, witness, and take new chances in faith. There's so much left to do and learn and I want to get as much of it crammed into my tiny life as possible before I reach the finish line.