Too much Blabbing

This has quite possibly been one of the worst months of my life. I don't know how I got myself in this deep, but I managed to...I shouldn't be surprised. I feel so much anxiety, pressure, stress, chaos...and I don't know what to do. I'm trying to find peace in the Lord, but I can't when I feel like such a hypocrite. I know we all make mistakes and everything, but I don't know how to fix anything that's going on around me anymore. I know I just need to give it to God...I just wish I could see the whole picture..you know? Right when I think things are calming down I let my guards down, and then I feel like some one is right there to throw another thing at me. All I've gotta say is, I cannot wait for this trip to pigeon forge this weekend. I can't wait just to clear my mind of everything. I can't wait to spend a weekend with people who I know will encourage me in my walk just by simply being there and not saying anything important.
It seems like I'm being pulled and tugged at on so many different sides. I feel like in this spiritual battle I'm just holding my knees, rocking back and forth, hoping everything will just go away somehow. The crazy thing is, I don't know at what point exactly I ended up in this position. It all happens so fast I guess. Well, I know one thing for sure, God has me in His hand. Why am I so stupid? I shouldn't be this stressed. I know in 10 years this will hardly matter to me. "Man is like a breath; his days are like a fleeting shadow."(Psalm 144:4)
Well, it was nice to vent a little...sorry it had to be on here. I know everything will be alright. "We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose."(Romans 8:28)