Metamorphasis

Hey guys! I know I haven't posted anything in a really long time. I have been sorting through some things in my life and leaning on Jesus for His guidance, so I'm sorry if you thought I had abandoned ya'll! I'm gonna post a song that I just wrote down like 5 minutes ago, and hope that it reaches whoever it was meant for! I love you, brothers and sisters!
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I'm waiting for You
To fulfill Your plan
Waiting for a boy
To become a man;
A knight to become
A glorious king.
Take my heart
And make me sing.

(Chorus):
A songbird wrapped
In a pretty little cage
An apprentice
Serving under a sage
A princess
Locked high in the tower
The lump of coal
Transforming under Your power

A battle sconce
With a brand new queen
Scarcely believing
She's living this dream
She almost died
When the dragons came
From a broken Chalice
Until the Hero called her name

(Chorus)

(Bridge):
Oh, Jesus, amazing
The way that You call
Bringing out greatness
Within those who follow (repeat x1)

Tug of War

Romans 7:21-25

I have discovered this principle of life-

that when I want to do what is right,

I inevitably do what is wrong.

I love God's law with all my heart.

But there is another power within me

that is at war with my mind.

This power makes me a slave to the sin

that is still within me.

Oh, what a miserable person I am!

Who will free me from this life

that is dominated by sin and death?

Thank God!

The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.

So you see how it is:

In my mind I really want to obey God's law,

but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.

As I drove to Spartanburg to meet my sister's husband to pick Rosie up my mind was going a mile a minute. I was listening to Casting Crowns and Group 1 Crew. I started thinking about the struggling I have been going through lately. It seems I am always struggling. I am tired from all the struggling. I realized that there is a war going on inside me. Around me. It is between the Holy Spirit and my sinful nature. Lately, my sinful nature has been fighting harder. Hitting me harder. Knocking me down more and more. I couldn't help but picture myself the rope in a game of tug of war between the Holy Spirit and my sinful nature. Both tugging at one end of me. It seems as the Holy Spirit pulls harder, I am wrenched from sinful natures hold but fall hard to the ground with scratches and bruises. So even as the Holy Spirit wins, I find myself stumbling and doing things I don't want to do. I am so grateful that Jesus does not ever let go. Psalm 37:24. He never leaves my side! But I feel so weak lately. I find myself making choices that are harmful to me. That feel like backsliding.

I find myself becoming discouraged. All I want to do is serve, but it seems obstacles get thrown at me. Why should it be so hard to do as God has asked me to? It is wearying. I have been under some depression lately as the holidays have been upon me. I have found myself crying out to God...Why? Is it your plan for me to spend my days alone without an earthly husband and if so, take this desire from me. I know I should be content. Everyone tells me in God's timing. Good, in God's timing. Then why won't He take this desire from my heart. I don't want it to matter whether there is someone in my life or not! It is distracting. I don't like it. It is not something I want to dwell on! But it creeps in so much! To the point where I get angry at God, throw my hands up in the air, and say forget it. Why am I even trying.

I have found myself at the end of my rope. Frazzled. Ready to quit. I know this doesn't sound very Christian, but this is a point in my life, a Christian woman. A part of the struggle of this walk. I realize that. I know it will pass. I know even in my anger God is always with me. I know that He has placed it on my heart to share my walk in all aspects. He wants to use me to show others that these feelings are part of being human. That we are not perfect. That we DO make mistakes. That even though He doesn't want us to make these mistakes He will use them to grow us, and for His greater purpose. Yesterday morning I woke up to a sermon by Charles Stanley. He was in Romans 8. He read 8:28 And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. So, even in my anger. Even in my bad choices. God knew I would choose to do the things I have done, even thought. But because I love Him so much and I am one of His children, He will use it. He allowed me to do those things for a reason. What those reasons are I don't know. I can't know what God thinks or His reasoning's are. I just know that He has a purpose for me. I have to hold tightly to that. I have to hang on even if the end of my rope is in shreds and my hands are dripping blood from holding on so tight and my head hurts from squeezing my eyes so tightly because I just can't watch anymore.

God is there. He is going to and is healing this broken heart. I am grateful for His grace and forgiveness. I am His child and I love Him so much. That much I know. I know that even as I let go, He is there to catch me.

Thank you Jesus!

Your sister in Christ,

jennifir

Uncertainty

Psalm 46:10

"Be still and know that I am God!

I will be honored by every nation.

I will be honored throughout the world."

I love this verse. God has been pointing it out to me for the past few weeks. In one way or another. I have a tendency to jump. I get all excited and antsy and run with ideas. I have a lot of uncertainty in my life. A lot of what ifs...how am I going to do this? Where am I going? What is God's plan for me? Whys? I have so many whys. It seems that life has not been fair for me in so many ways. In finances, relationships. Life has been so uncertain for me for so long that uncertainty has been such a constant. As I sat in church this morning and listened to Pastor Matt give the message, I realized that part of the reason I have so much uncertainty is because I am not taking the time to be still. To really listen.

I can't help but think of driving down the road, the rain is pounding so hard on my car and the thunder rumbling so loud I can't keep driving. I can't see through the windshield and I'm shaking in my boots each time I hear the thunder crash all around me and all this while I am driving. I have no choice but to pull over. To sit still on the side of the road and wait for the storm to lessen so I can again get back onto the road and to my destination. Realizing that I need to stop and be still is only the first part of that though. As I sit there, I need to breathe. Calm my heart, mind and thoughts. Thoughts reel through my head. There is a storm within a storm. I need to still all the thoughts. I need to stop talking. I want to hear God when He speaks to me. I don't know how to still my mind. I'm trying to figure it out. I ask God to help me. I want to stop rambling off to God. I want to hear Him! I've said enough. I don't know how to make the thoughts to stop. I need to stop. take some time. There's a storm raging all around me...I'm going to hydroplane if I'm not careful.

I'm exhausted. I just want to give up and just live. I ask myself is it worth it? Do I have to be alone? I'm tired of being alone. I know I have God. I am so grateful that I have God and that He is forever faithful. He is showing me slowly but surely, sinking it into my very thick skull that He is always with me. I am never alone. I desire to be loved here on earth as well. God knows my heart, but I can't hear what He is saying to me if I am not still. Listen. I desire above all else to hear what God is telling me. Not what anyone else is telling me, but what God is telling me! God, oh God...I want to hear your voice. You have given me a vision....a dream. Guide me. Show me. I need peace. I need these uncertainties to be washed away in this crazy storm going on inside me. My life is so uncertain. I am scared. I don't know where I am going. I am afraid I will remain stagnate in life. That my abundance will be given to me once I am in heaven. Oh God, please, I would like to know abundance here on this earth as well.

I know that is selfish of me. I am a selfish person. I admit it. It is a weakness of mine. I am always thinking of myself. I have been in 2 Corinthians as well. 12:9 Each time he said, "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.

Selfishness is a weakness for me. Earthly desires of alleviating my loneliness is a weakness. God works best in my weakness. He shows me my weakness and shows me that I am only strengthened by Him. He will make me surefooted as a deer as He guides and teaches me. He did not say this would be easy so I rejoice in my weaknesses. I rejoice in the desert of my life. In the torrential downpours of my life. In the quiet times. I rejoice in the uncertainties because without them I would not desire to be still and hear. (Habakkuk 3:19)

I have so much to learn. I am so glad that I will never stop learning and growing closer to Jesus! I want Him to be proud of me. Oh yes, but I am so weak. I am so tired. Jesus is my rock! He is the only constant. He is always with me.

I end this with one of my most favorite verses and I have many. Psalm 16:8 I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.

I rejoice in my weaknesses. I rejoice in constant growth. I rejoice in Grace and forgiveness.

I love Jesus!

Ramblings of one sister in Christ,

Jennifir Huston

Jesus loves you!

Weakness

Do you ever just feel weak? Feel as if nothing is ever going right for you? Ever feel like everyone else around you gets happiness but it is your lot in life to be the ultimate sacrificer by living a single life although your heart does not desire it? Do you ever feel like you'll never have anything? Do you ever just stop feeling?

I do. I have felt this way a lot lately. I have not only felt lonely, but in limbo. What do I really have that is mine? I have a bed, few dressers, clothes, and such. But not much else. I feel like my life is chaotic. I have had a hard go of it the past month and I apologize for not writing lately. My heart just hasn't been in it. I haven't known what part of what is going on in my life I should share. I'm at a point of not knowing where my life is heading. What God's plan is for me. I feel so up in the air most of the time. Just when I thought I had given up all I could, I not only lose one but both my cats. I know it sounds silly but it was a hard blow for me. I want to cry even now. As I drove home from the grocery store tonight with a bag of cat litter for Mamaws kitties, I couldn't help but get teary eyed as I realized this litter was not for my two kitties. I miss them so much. Lovey passed away on a Monday. The Tuesday after, my purse and bible are stolen from my car. I just totally broke down. I got angry. Tired. I can't seem to grasp anything. Life. I just want to rest.

I have had the strongest urge to just give up lately. To put all things I have my hands in and just close up. Work, go to church and live. But I can't. I have this strong desire to serve God. No matter what, I am addicted to serving God. I love that revelation. It is tiring, but He always provides the means. He is always at my side. I know in my heart, even as the tears try to come again, that losing my cats is not what God desired, but He will use it. (Romans 8:28) He will use it in the fact that whatever next step He has for me, they may not be able to go. I know I am also in a humbling process. How can I not be?

I'm having to depend on others. Although, I pay rent, I don't feel like my home is my home. I just feel lost. But at the same time, I know God is preparing me for the place He has for me. Its a lonely street I walk on right now. I feel like I can't go on sometimes. Like I just want to cry. I just want to be happy. I feel as if I am having to make a choice. Live a life of only God and having nothing in life or vice versa. Call me selfish but I want Jesus and to have things in life! John 10:10 God did promise us life abundantly! I'm holding Him to that promise now.

Its just so hard and I'm so stubborn. I'm trying to be a good servant, but I have been weak. God knew I would have a few weak moments and before I was He sent me to 2 Corinthians 12, but especially verse 9 . Each time he said, "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.

I really digest this verse and have been for the past few weeks as I realize just how weak I really am. I rejoice in my weaknesses and the fact that I listen, even as I am weak, as God shows them to me to realize and remember that I am human. And it is with that humanness, that weakness, Christ can and will work through me. I am shown that I am nothing without Jesus. And that He can use my weakness. He can perform a miracle in me by giving me the strength I need to do as He asks. And He places a strong desire in my heart to please Him. I want God, my daddy in heaven, to smile down on me!

I know He won't abandon me or leave my side. God is so amazing! My heart bubbles even as I type with my love for Him!

I know this was a ramble, but it is some of what is going through the head of this one, weak, little person who is a Christian child who is in love with Jesus!

Your sister in Christ,
Jennifir

Where there is vision there is hope!

Hebrews 11:1

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for

will actually happen;

it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.

It seems a continuous struggle to have faith. I do have faith that Jesus died on the cross and rose again for me. But there are so many areas in my life I have a hard time expressing faith. Trusting in God. I want to and I do know God will and is helping me with my faith. I have asked him to and I know He can. I am so grateful for that. I want to trust God in ALL areas of my life, not just this one or that one. I know God loves me so much that I should have a peace that he has my best interest in His heart in all that He allows to happen to me, asks me to do, asks me to give up, or does not give me when I ask for it. He has a plan (Jer. 29:11-14) and it is all in His time, not mine. I must learn to practice patience. Trust God. It is God's Will! Not mine! What I think is best for me is not best for me at all and definitely not best for God's plans to use me which I have asked Him to use me. I want to God to use me! I am his willing, loving servant. But I must trust Him! I must look at some of the examples of faith God has in His word to understand faith a little more, although it is not always an easy concept for me to embrace.

I was reading in Genesis this morning and had just been thinking about my faith when I started reading about how God tested Abraham's faith. Abraham truly trusted God. He demonstrated his faith in God. Even as he was leaving his servants at a distance from where God was asking him to sacrifice his only son, Abraham demonstrated his faith. He told his servants to wait with the donkey and said, "The boy and I will travel a littler farther. We will worship there, and then we will come right back. (Genesis 22:5) Abraham knew he was to sacrifice his only son he had waited so long for, he had faith that God would provide and alternate and he and his son would return to the servants together. He said WE, not I. He trusted God that much! That's how I want to be! Abraham did all God asked of him although it most surely was not what he wanted to do. It pained him but he trusted God! He trusted God's plans and trusted that God would not in the end expect him to kill Isaac. He allowed God to direct his steps and he placed each foot where God asked him to. God did did provide! At the last minute there was a ram. Then Abraham looked up and saw a ram caught by its horn in a thicket. So he took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering in the place of his son. Abraham named the place Yahweh-Yireh (which means "the Lord will provide"). To this day, people still use that name as a proverb: "On the mountain of the Lord it will be provided." (Genesis 22:13-14)

Abraham passed an amazingly, excruciating test of faith. Sacrificing your only child has got to be the hardest sacrifice of all. Honestly, I don't think I could and I thank God He hasn't asked me to. He has asked me for the first year of my salvation to allow my daughter to spend a lot of time with her dad as He grew me, which was not easy, but nothing compared to the sacrifice God asked Abraham to make. There are many things God asks us to sacrifice in order to prove our faith in him and to grow closer to Him. God has asked me to sacrifice, to give up some things for good and some things for a short while. I notice as I obey I grow closer to God and He gives me something better in its place. It does not make the sacrifice any less painful. The withdrawals can have me crying, numb, even afraid, but I turn to God in those times. I hide under His wings and let Him hold me close to Him. I put my trust in Him. He asks me to do things that seem impossible and then He reminds me in His word that all things are possible with God. (Matthew 19:26, Luke 1:37, Philippians 4:13 are just a few.)

God gave me a vision months ago. A vision I just could not imagine ever doing. He showed it to me vividly. He didn't show me how it would come about. I wasn't and still am not ready for the full fruition and harvest of the vision. God was placing the desire in my heart. Planted the seed. Showing me what the flower would look like, but the field was yet to even be cultivated. I set aside the vision as one sets aside a seed to germinate.

As I drove to a friends house yesterday afternoon after meeting with some band members from a local band who are probably going to play at The Open Door Coffeehouse, I began thinking about that vision. And how far God has brought me in my cultivation. I realize as I write this that He gave me the name before I had the vision. He called it Freaky For Jesus. I thought. Wow. God gave me this huge vision. I had wondered and still wonder how it would come about, but it is not for me to wonder about, it if for God to reveal the pieces at the right times. I must trust God!

I do know it had to begin with desire. God is going to make it huge. He is providing a network and so many strong Christians around me and merging my visions with other peoples vision. My vision is actually only just a piece of a bigger one. New Disciples is proof in that. As these visions come together as a puzzle, I see how big it really is. I am also excited to know that what is in my heart will be and is shared with so many others. That I will not be a lone plant in this particular garden, but a plant among many to be harvested when God decides it's time. I write this now not even sure of the whole big picture, but I have seen my part in it and I trust God will reveal what I need to know when I need to know it and He will provide the means.

In the meantime as I grow, as I am cultivated, I understand and joyfully accept that there is a constant weeding process and there are times the roots of the weeds intertwine with my roots. Those roots get so entangled at times they must be cut away. It is not always easy, but I am so grateful for The Master Gardner, Jesus! And He knows all about this little plant, Jennifir, because I know I don't know what I need. So, I choose to trust in the Lord in all I do. I choose to allow God to direct my steps! He is amazing! He has my heart! I tuck myself underneath my Father's warm, comforting, loving wing!

Thank God He loves us so much!

I truly love Jesus!

your sister in Christ,

Jennifir

God IS Love!

1 John 4:16

We know how much God loves us,

and we have put our trust in his love.

God is love,

and all who live in love live in God,

and God lives in them.

This has been a week of reflection. Of being fed. Of allowing God to love on me. Pamper me. To let go. It has been a week of opening my heart just a little more despite how scary it is for me. Opening my heart means greater chances of heart ache. More exposure to the elements of those who may or may not mean to hurt me. It has been a week of God just telling me over and over through this person, that event, that cloud, this verse that He loves me. He just plain old loves me. I don't need to look for love anywhere but with Him. I don't need anyone but God when it comes right down to it. Why do I keep hoping and looking that I may actually get a chance to find love anywhere else? As soon as I look, my eyes go off Jesus and I lose my focus. I forget who I should be seeking. I don't know how to not lose my focus. I don't know how to always keep my eyes on Him.

When am I going to get it through my thick skull that all I need is Jesus!

I'm just rambling. I don't know what to say or what to think anymore. I want to be happy. I want to have what I don't have. Why can't I stop worrying about what I want and just be grateful for what I do have? So, I'm going to spend the rest of my days with my cats...that should be fine. I should be OK with whatever God has chosen for me.

I'm having a hard time hearing what He's saying to me. My ears are clogged. I clean them out and junk keeps coming out of them, its never ending. I want to truly hear what God is telling me. I have a tendency to hear what I want to hear. I have a hard time discerning what is something I am actually saying to myself not what God is saying. I'm foggy....I can't tell the difference right now. I feel chaotic. I feel like I should hole up. I'm too dangerous to my own heart to be allowed out among the people. I have such a high hope that they get dashed immediately.

I don't even know. I want to serve God! I love Jesus! I want to do what He wants me to do. How can I actually hear? How? I have some blockage! I want that blockage gone. I made a promise to myself, I broke it. I prayed today with a good friend and as we prayed God gave me this verse.

Ruth 3:18 Then Naomi said to her, "Just be patient, my daughter, until we hear what happens. The man won't rest until he has settled things today."

How can I wait when I don't even know what I'm waiting for? That is my question. I need to know what it is I'm waiting for. I'm so weary of hoping. I'm so weary of opening a part of myself then closing it tighter each time I shut the door. Its time I opened that door completely once and for all and took the risk of whatever is on the other side.

My life is in a renewal stage. There is a new step, phase, opening in my life. I can feel it. It scares me. Like jumping into the deep end of pool being afraid of how cold its going to be. Sometimes it is cold at first, but then my body regulates. I don't want everything to be such a struggle for me. I'm worn out. I'm tired of struggling. I prayed for confirmation on this day and God gave me my confirmation. It was not what I wanted. I was wrong yet again. I am having a hard time discerning.

Except.

There is one message that has come out above all the muck. I need to hold dear to that message and give everything else to Him. I give it all to Him.

God loves me!

your sister in Christ,

Jennifir

PS: this was just a rambling of thoughts...not a teaching...just a struggle I am having right now. Please keep me in your prayers.

I got this sudden need to go to Lake Junaluska today. For those of you who don't know, its a small, man made lake in Waynesville, North Carolina. A nice place to walk or sit. As I sat there, I could hear the little waterfall flowing. It calmed my racing mind. My racing heart. I am unsure. I feel lost. In limbo. Pushed out of the scheme of things. A little afraid. I don't know what I'm afraid of, but I am. As I grow closer to a true acceptance that I may never marry again, my heart pounds inside. I feel a rejection. A rejection from everyone because I feel I am not good enough. God is slowly showing me I am, but it is a timely process. Tears gather behind my eyes. Ready to fall of their own accord, in my selfishness. In my attempt at making myself a victim. A victim of circumstance. I can't help but think back to the man who skewed my whole view of my worth as a woman and not be angry. He taught me my worth was only sexual at such a young age. I am angry at him. I have to continuously forgive him and the craziest thing is, I was not near violated as so many have been. My experience was small, yet it has affected me for years afterward and even now. I have to forgive him. I have to forgive myself for allowing it to happen. Even now, the shame is clear as day. I feel as if I caused it to happen. I was too pretty. Too needy even then. It wasn't my fault! I have to forgive myself more than I have to forgive him. Sometimes, it is in needing to forgive ourselves that we are unable to move on. I vow to forgive myself and realizing I was just a child. I was just a child!

And now, I admit, I grasp onto that victimness I acquired so long ago and use it as an excuse. Use it to continue to treat myself as a victim. A victim of circumstance. A victim of life. I need to stop making myself a victim for I am not! I am God's little girl! My current circumstances are a product of my choices. I chose to eat the chocolate cake with the mindset, "Who cares how fat I get? No matter what I weigh no man will ever truly love me." I choose to allow myself to be drawn in by men below the standards I should have for myself, biblical standards, therefore I have suffered many disappointments and heartbreaks. But what good Christian man would want a tainted woman like me? I keep getting caught up in this pattern. I can't help but think of Galatians 5:16-18, where Paul talks about the battle inside of us between the Holy Spirit and our sinful nature. We must ask for freeing everyday if not more. At least I do. I know there is a heated battle going on inside my heart and that is why it feels so unsettled. I see it and know it, but it doesn't make it not hurt.

Why can't I let go of this pattern? I find myself turning to food or trying to vie for the attentions of this man or that. All to cover up my loneliness. Psalm 91 is one of the many places in God's word that tells me exactly where I can go to alleviate my loneliness....so why do I choose to go a route I know I will get hurt? The feelings of continuous rejection because I just don't seem good enough for anyone. I get stuck! I'm so tired of getting my legs caught in the mud.

Why should it even matter if I'm good enough for anyone or not when I know I am good enough for God because I was made right by Jesus' sacrifice for me on the cross. It is only by grace am I made right. (Romans 3:23-26) But it does matter to me, to my human, lonely heart. I am so mad at myself for allowing the enemy to come in and make it matter so much. I am disappointed time and time again by men and other people in my life. I put my trust into them instead of God. All that should matter is that I know Jesus loves me. All that should matter is to truly realize the sacrifice God made for me just because He loves me! God loves me! The tainted one! The one who allowed herself to be shown pornography and touched by the age of eight. God loves me! The one who was a Buddhist. The one who was promiscuous and experimented with drugs. God loves me! He has forgiven me for all those things. Now, it is time I forgive myself! I am just so weary worrying about what others think of me. I only want to worry what God thinks of me. I want my Daddy proud of me!

I am going through growing pains in my spiritual growth, just as I did as a little girl as I grew. My legs would hurt so bad I would cry all night long until I got ben-gay on my legs. It is a struggle to truly learn how to go from being a victim to being God's obedient little girl. I am not a victim. I must wrench free from this pattern. But I cannot do it. I must step back and allow Jesus to free me. But I must ask and believe. (Mark 9:24 The father instantly cried out, "I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!" ) I cry this verse out to Jesus. I finally admit that I do have unbelief. That I need help to overcome that unbelief. But I must ask Him. (Mark 9:29 Jesus replied, "This kind can be cast out only by prayer." There are some demons, some patterns that can only be cast out when we ask Jesus to cast it out. I am asking Jesus to cast out my need to be a victim. My loneliness. I have to let go and give everything to God.

I need to stop trying to create my own love story, direct my own friendships. I must follow God's path, not mine. (Proverbs 21:24, 3:6)

Then why is it so hard to obey? To put one foot in front of the other? To step where God directs me? I can tell you partly why it is so hard for me. I don't trust Him enough, oh God forgive me, to allow Him to take over. I feel He won't give me what I think I need so I have to get it myself. I am not trusting in God with all my heart. But with all my heart I want to.

Yes, I am being honest. I am looking at myself. I am sharing my struggle. My greatest desire is to trust God with all my heart, mind, and soul, yet I am afraid to take what is within my reach. And that is all that He has for me. God has so much for me. Why won't I trust Him that He will give it to me as I am ready, in His right time? I am but a human, thirty-three year old woman who has spent most of my life learning how to do things on my own.

It is time for me to realize that I don't have do that with God. I am not on my own anymore. I don't have to create chance encounters with that certain guy I am interested in. God will have me meet the one for me when it is time. I just have to have faith in God. Use this time of waiting so that I may grow closer in my relationship with Jesus. I have wasted so many precious moments hoping that special someone is around the corner, always looking for him. And maybe he is, but how will I know if I don't follow in Jesus' footsteps instead of trying to create my own path?

I have felt blah. Out of sorts. I know I am in yet another transition stage. I can't see anything as in a movie when it goes to the next scene. There's that split second transition of blackness. It may not feel split second to me right now, but it is. In God's time. And as that transition fades and moves me into the next step I will be that much closer to Jesus.

I am so grateful for all I have learned, am learning and will learn. It is no easy path, but it is the path to the light. The eternal life I yearn for. True love. True acceptance. Eternal life. And the only way there is through Jesus Christ. I choose to pick up my cross, bear it, and walk that path through the rocky terrain, the level ground, the steep mountain sides, during heavy downpours and light drizzles. I choose to walk in the way. Straight for Jesus Christ.

your sister in Christ,

Jennifir